Wow, it's crazy what a couple of months can do. Heh. If you read my journals from the past few months and then read them from now, I guess you could say that nothing has really changed, except one huge part of me. At first I was sad at that change, but now that I'm back at school, it was definately a blessing in disguise. I'm able to finally live again, and not have to stress about when I would be able to get back to Raleigh. I didn't realize how much I was abandoning my friends until they flat out told me how they felt about me always leaving. For that I am sorry, and I promise that I won't put that kind of shit ahead of these wonderful friendships again... Oh well, I just read my last journal and went.... "wow"... so I thought I'd clarify all that really quickly. I still love my brothers and my friends, its just the latter part of that entry that has slowly winked out of existance in the past 5 months... And how do I feel about that? That's still a good question, but I can honestly finally say that I'm happy with the outcome of everything.